From a Distance I say Goodbye

"Saying goodbye is never easy"

Today is not one of the brightest days in my life. I'm filled with excitement for the new adventures ahead of me but I'm also extremely sad. I chose to live a life of my own which is all fair and right but as with every decision we make in life there are consequences. 

3 months ago my uncle got diagnosed with a malignant brain tumor (cancerous) which quickly spread to the rest of his body. I remember finding out the night before Halloween. Since that night I've been preparing myself for "the" call but I don't think anything really prepares you for the devistating message coming through the telephone lines. The last 3 months of this life he did everything and visited everyone until he blew his last air making most of the time he had left.

Today I have to say goodbye to a man I got to know since a baby. My uncle whom I have known, visited and come to love passed away a week ago. Today I have to face one of the consequences. I am far far away from the people who I love, the people I call family. But not only that. I never got to say goodbye. I never got to share stories and laugh about them. My uncle would've celebrated his birthday today with various cakes and teas but rather we are saying our final goodbyes today in covered in the black sorrows. 

I look up at the heavens, trying to picture his face smiling down laughing with happiness dancing and making music around a campfire on a mountain or in the desert after a day of riding 4x4 through obstacles, celebrating a lifetime of moments with his sons and his extended family and friends. He was a beloved man who always gave others more than he could afford to give. A man of God and a family man of note.

Goodbye oom Louis. Until we see eachother again.